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Wellllll, for about a week the kids were battling a stomach bug but thankfully seem better now. Last night my mom and I went to get my grandma’s diamond re-set. I’m hoping no one is upset I have it but I’m really excited. It’s really sweet of her to leave it to me and I hope she’d approve of what I picked out for it too. 

Aaaanyway, I’ve been feeling grateful and positive again. Which makes me very happy. I struggled through the boys being sick but I seem to be going back to that positive state pretty easily. I’ve only worked out once this week so hopefully getting back to that soon tooo. 

where’s my noodle arms

I worked out yesterday (arms) and I have no noodles today. Go figure. 

Because I deserved it

I had a productive and positive day. I worked out, I showered (washed my hair and shaved my legs even), changed the sheets on the bed and finished a crochet scarf. I read my book while waiting to get the boys and emptied the dishwasher. A ton of little things that I struggle with when I’m down but I deserved to have them done and deserve the positivity from doing them. 

Go me 😊

I want to be alive again

Looking back at old photos, it’s like watching myself decay. The way I’ve changed, my smile lessened, my face changing entirely. My body feeling more foreign. I want to be me again. I want to be alive again. 

Here goes nothing.